Its Been a Long Time

Wow, I actually forgot that I had blog. How senile am I lol? I guess I've been verbal speaking to mind to everyone and I didn't really need to let out on here as much. Not to much has happened, ok maybe a few things have happened but its nothing to yell and tell the world.

I'm finally finished with this semester. Unfortunately, I got a C+ in one of my classes. I was so upset when I saw it, but I kinda expected it. I wanted to almost cry though. But thats life, not everything is rainbows and butterflies, u have to get through the thunderstorms and hurricanes before u can truly appreciate all the good things. I'm very happy that I got two Bs and an A though. So now my gpa is a 3.4. I guess I will just have to work harder next semester.

I have so much to write about so this is gonna be the most random and unorganized post ever becuz I don't feel like making a bunch of different ones. I know I'm lazy but hey thats me.

I went to 106 and Park about a week ago and I had a really good time, despite the fact that I got caught in the rain and was completely soaked and was an hour late. Being drench in water, with my gel pouring out of my hair was completely worth it though. Lucky me, I got to meet Trey Songz. And I must say that this man is even better looking in person. He looks flawless and almost fake. He has one of the best smiles that I have ever seen.

I finally got to see the Hannah Montana Movie [kinda late and kiddish, but I loved it]. It was alot better than I expected it be. I loved the part at the end when she sings the climb.

I had a very informative and deep conversation with [him] the other night. I almost broke completely down, but it was nothing less than I expected. According to him he doesn't have romantic feelings toward me anymore, and he was just trying to be nice to me by still being around and acting like he likes me. Honestly I wasn't surprised at all, I was just upset that I was lied to. And I'm tired of playing the victim and always feeling like I owe him something. I just simply want him to be here becuz it is truly where he wants to be. According to him this is where he wants to be for now, but idk how much longer this will last. At some point though I know that I won't be able to hold on any longer and he won't give any thing else to hold on to. The more I think about us though, I just know that all the bad and the pain is worth it for now, just so that I can have the moments when we are together and everything else doesn't seem to matter and we are happy. I'm probably crazy to wait and hope that I future together will be brighter but for now I'm happy with him and I love him, and I want to be able to express my love for him no matter how he feels about me. Just like I said before sometimes u have to go through the toughest rain storms to get to the most beautiful rainbows. I just hope that at the end my rainbow is all I'm hoping it to be.