Wednesday, January 6, 2010


I really don't feel like typing anything but I made a resolution and I'm gonna try to stick to it. So here's my attempt, whatever comes out don't judge me, I'm bored.

I think that I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to date people my age anymore. Every guy that I know that is in my age group is not mature enough for me. I need someone who is at least 2 years older than me, they usually understand me more and understand the type of relationship I want. Young boys come with too much drama.

I'm so ready to just go back to school also because vacation was fun when it started but now it just seems like I'm wasting my days away. I'm ready to just go back already but I still have like 2 more weeks. This is going to be the longest 2 weeks ever.

OK, I think that's all that is on my mind for now. Hopefully next time I will actually have a real topic to discuss, but for now this is goodbye.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Do people really change?

So I posted something on my twitter the other day stating "People don't change, situations do" and I got mixed reviews about the topic. I believe that once people reach a certain level of maturity and intelligence that it is basically impossible for them to change. I don't think that a person that has been set in their ways for too long can change themselves. And with the changing of situations I believe that any situation can be change. I believe that a person just has to be smart enough to realize whats worth changing and what you just need to walk away from. And with that said I have walked away from a bunch of situations this year and I don't regret any of my decisions.


I figure since I haven't come up with anything yet that my New Year's resolution will be to get back on my blog. I will definitely do a post rounding up my year, it shall be interesting.

I change like the seasons

So I haven't been on my blog in ages, but as soon as I came back to it I realized that I had to change everything about it. It's actually quite sad though. As soon as I saw the word love on my blog I thought "Oh no that has to go." So much has changed since the last time I posted. My feelings are completely different now towards love, relationships, and men in general. I don't have the same mentality that I did earlier this year. I think I've become pessimistic about it all or maybe just tired of it. My feelings now are that I am too young to worry about it and I should just worry about living my life and doing whats good for me. I just want to make my life worth living[that's my motto now] So I decided to put me and my life first and then love last, if it comes it comes if it doesn't oh well, I'll still be alive.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Its Been a Long Time

Wow, I actually forgot that I had blog. How senile am I lol? I guess I've been verbal speaking to mind to everyone and I didn't really need to let out on here as much. Not to much has happened, ok maybe a few things have happened but its nothing to yell and tell the world.

I'm finally finished with this semester. Unfortunately, I got a C+ in one of my classes. I was so upset when I saw it, but I kinda expected it. I wanted to almost cry though. But thats life, not everything is rainbows and butterflies, u have to get through the thunderstorms and hurricanes before u can truly appreciate all the good things. I'm very happy that I got two Bs and an A though. So now my gpa is a 3.4. I guess I will just have to work harder next semester.

I have so much to write about so this is gonna be the most random and unorganized post ever becuz I don't feel like making a bunch of different ones. I know I'm lazy but hey thats me.

I went to 106 and Park about a week ago and I had a really good time, despite the fact that I got caught in the rain and was completely soaked and was an hour late. Being drench in water, with my gel pouring out of my hair was completely worth it though. Lucky me, I got to meet Trey Songz. And I must say that this man is even better looking in person. He looks flawless and almost fake. He has one of the best smiles that I have ever seen.

I finally got to see the Hannah Montana Movie [kinda late and kiddish, but I loved it]. It was alot better than I expected it be. I loved the part at the end when she sings the climb.

I had a very informative and deep conversation with [him] the other night. I almost broke completely down, but it was nothing less than I expected. According to him he doesn't have romantic feelings toward me anymore, and he was just trying to be nice to me by still being around and acting like he likes me. Honestly I wasn't surprised at all, I was just upset that I was lied to. And I'm tired of playing the victim and always feeling like I owe him something. I just simply want him to be here becuz it is truly where he wants to be. According to him this is where he wants to be for now, but idk how much longer this will last. At some point though I know that I won't be able to hold on any longer and he won't give any thing else to hold on to. The more I think about us though, I just know that all the bad and the pain is worth it for now, just so that I can have the moments when we are together and everything else doesn't seem to matter and we are happy. I'm probably crazy to wait and hope that I future together will be brighter but for now I'm happy with him and I love him, and I want to be able to express my love for him no matter how he feels about me. Just like I said before sometimes u have to go through the toughest rain storms to get to the most beautiful rainbows. I just hope that at the end my rainbow is all I'm hoping it to be.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Do You Really Know Jersey?

So, I just got finished reading a bunch of comments on about the upcoming premiere of the Real Housewives of NJ. And it seems that everyone was bashing and hating hard on New Jersey. It disgusted to me to read some of the stuff that was said, and most of it was by people that don't even live here. And honestly I had no idea that people were viewing our state this way. People were calling it dirty and saying it is trash and it smells. Which honestly in some spots it does smell. But these close-minded, ignorant people have no idea how important NJ really is.

Firstly NJ was one of the first states to join the union, and today it is the second wealthiest state in America. NJ is great, not to mention our famous beaches, and the many ports that we have that play a big role in importing and exporting valuable items. So I decided to post some reasons to love NJ (no particular order):

1. The beaches, need I say more

2. Atlantic city

3. NYC influence

4.Liberty State Park

5. Princeton University

6. Six Flags

7. Real Estate

8. Rutgers University

9. Brooke Shields

10. The Sopranos

11. Bruce Springsteen

12.Bruce Willis

13. Chris Rock

14. Lauryn Hill

15.Ice T

16. Whitney Houston

17. Redman

18. Christina Milian

19. Naughty by Nature

20. Neighboring NYC, Philly, DC, and Baltimore

21. Full service gas stations

22. Diner Capitol of the WORLD

23. Largest seaport in US, in ELIZABETH

24. 80% of the nations imports comes through Elizabeth

25. The light bulb, phonograph, and motion picture projector were invented in NJ

26. Monopoly streets based off of Atlantic City streets

27. Atlantic City has the longest board walk in the WORLD

28. Frank Sinatra

29. First drive-in movie theater

30. Important battles of the Revolutionary War were fought here

31. 2nd wealthiest state in the nation, next to Maryland

32. The weather (whether you like it cold or hot)

33. Diversity among the people

34. The Malls

35. Walt Whitman

36. The Liberty Science Center


38. The Prudential Center

39. The Appalachian Trail

40. The NJ Devils

41. Seton Hall University

Feel free to add to the list.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Something new?

This weekend was beautiful, the weather was beyond perfection. I love summer, and heat, and the sun shining brightly. So a recap of my weekend:

On friday I was hanging with one of my friends and at night we went to her boo's house to just hang out. Long story short we watched tv and he got drunk, and I was so bored after a while that I decided to just get drunk. Anyway one of his friends was over and me and him ened up being the last two awake. So we stayed up until like almost 7 just talking to eachother and flirting like crazy. And I think that I really like him now. He has a really nice personality and we mesh well lol. But there are two problems: 1. he slept with one of my friends before and 2. he just got back with his ex girl. UGH! I was so upset when I found this out. And I've been thinking about him since friday night. And i was actually gonna go out on a limb with him and ask him out instead of waiting to see if he asks me out. This whole situation just sucks.

But even after that I had to think, what can I offer this boy? I don't want a relationship and I still talk to my ex. I'm not sure if I actually want to talk to other ppl or not. So would it have been selfish of me to even attempt to talk to him? Idk what I want but I know that I can't stop thinking about him and its getting annoying.

On saturday I went to NYC with my fam and met with my cousin and some of her friends from Philly. They were really cool and I enjoyed finally getting to meet some of her friends from school . So they all were getting tatts when we were in NYC. It was kinda fun because I never saw anyone get tatt b4, so it was interesting to watch. After that we just basically walked around. I LOVE walking in ny. I could just walk around there all day, if the weather was nice and I would never get bored. So obviously I was a little upset when everyone was ready to leave. But still it was a fun trip.

On sunday I wen to Keansburg with Reese and Tiff. I had alot of fun. And I think I got a tan. I love when I get tanned because my skin looks so beautiful and glowy. We just basically rode a bunch of rides and drunk lots of water, the heat was a killer. Overrall it was a good time.

Now I'm back to my regularly scheduled life lol. 2 more weeks of school left. Lets hope it flys by quickly.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Happy Earth Day!!

So today is Earth Day. And I believe that it is more important now than ever. I think that reality is finally starting to hit people and they are realizing how much we have destroyed the Earth so far. And being that I'm a biology major[I love animals and the environment period] I feel very appreciative about all the people who are trying to make a difference. We all can help with preserving the Earth in many different ways. So do some research or join a cause because every little thing helps, no matter how small.

Unfortunately, as I was coming to school today I noticed that they cut down about 4 or 5 trees right in front of the school. I have no idea why they cut them down, but I'm assuming that they are putting new ones up. If not then that is just so disgraceful. How dare they, on Earth Day, kill 4 trees? Thats crazy. I was so upset when I saw this. By the time I get out of school there better be 4 new, fully bloomed trees out there.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Lost without you.

Wow! Its been a while since I've posted anything. I guess I just didn't really have much to talk about. I don't really have much to talk about now either but I figured I would wing it lol.

So I rearranged my room and I got a new bed[my bunk bed is finally gone lol]. Its gonna take me a while to adjust to not sleeping on a bunk bed, but I'll be fine. My room finally feels like it is MY ROOM. Sooner or later I will get it painted, get a new rug, and a new bedspread. The spread I want is like aqua and white, so I'm gonna get an aqua rug, idk what color to do the walls tho because I don't really want to do them white...well I still have time to think about it.

Surprisingly, my [love] visited me twice this week. I usually only see him like once a week or every 2 weeks. It was a good surprise and I really enjoyed his company. Our [relationship] seems to be going very well. Its funny how not being in a relationship makes us better. But I'll do whatever it takes to make us work. I'm really happy right now and I'm sure he is too. Its less drama and less of a hassle than being fully committed and in a real relationship.

I went to my friend's son birthday party on Saturday. He was turning two. Unfortunately the party was in a park that was full of mud so I got pretty dirty. My nephew kept stepping all over me. I think my jeans were brown by the time we left. Its funny because I was more dirty than anybody and I was basically the only person there without a child.

Well thats about it. I don't really have much else to talk about. I gotta try to start posting more. I don't want my blog to feel neglected or get abandoned lol.